Friday, July 23, 2010

Strangers In Our House

I am happy to report that the mystery animal from two nights ago has moved!

My therapist suggested that my alters and I start a journal. I'm not sure how to go about this since I am still very new to all of this. I am more aware of them, I think. I can understand their conversations now - they seem to be closer, if that makes sense.

I'm finding random things around the house that either I have never noticed before or they were put there recently. New clothes that I don't remember buying. Food in the pantry that I have never bought. Dishes in the kitchen have been rearranged. The furniture in the living room was moved around as well. I'm finding more drawings in my daughters coloring basket that wasn't done by either of them. I'm also finding little bits of paper around the house that have been cut perfectly into triangles - neither of my kids can cut that well. I've talked to my husband about this and he knows nothing about it. We think it may be the alters coming out.

I don't know if I am okay with this. It is strange. I feel like a stranger is coming into our home and doing things in our house without our knowledge. Is it normal to be completely freaked out?


  1. Doesn't that feel strange? I don't like not having control or awareness either.


  2. That sounds difficult, but also an example of progress. I remember when I first started hearing inners talk more and how disturbing I felt about that, how intrusive it could be, and yet how much effort it took to get to that point.

    For me I was unnerved that there were strangers in the house, as you described it. But also it opened the door and let us stay in the same room and get to know them and that was challenging and wonderful and amazing and nothing has ever been the same. I got to know the strangers and with love we became family.

    Good and healing thoughts to you.